and in other terrifyingly deep thoughts… 

I’ve been trying to figure out why I’ve been feeling very alone lately.

Not alone like friendless; that I know isn’t true for me, which is brilliant. But alone romantically, I guess. Not that I feel unappreciated (not just that I feel unappreciated), but more like, will there actually be someone out there for me?

I think what scares me, makes me feel so wholly hopeless, is that I have yet to meet someone who makes me go, ‘Wow, this person fascinates me endlessly’, which I think is what I’ll need in order to fall in love.

I’ve certainly met incredible people, people who’ve made an impact, people who’ve supported me and carried me and inspired me, people who are honest and tear me down and build me back up. And that’s amazing.

But I think, as scared as I am to be alone forever, I’m equally if not more scared to be bored by the person with whom I spend my life.

I just need some semblance of proof that people like this do exist; there are people out there who will do more than just intrigue me but will drive me to want to know everything about them and to create new things together.

And in my 22 years of life, I have met no one who makes me feel that way. And that’s more than a bit terrifying.